Good day! I'm asking for advice on what to do next. A couple of days ago my boyfriend left me. Harsh and very rude! He said that he was tired of me and he was tired. We were together for more than five years. They came together and then diverged. He betrayed him more than once, but over time I forgave him everything.
In the last year, I began to work on our relationship with him through spiritual practices, and, as it seemed to me, everything began to improve. We stopped fighting, I learned to accept and love him for who he is, began to take care of him and obey him. I really liked it, it made me feel warm in my heart for him. But, apparently, all this was my deep delusion. He left! More precisely, he kicked me out without trying to explain anything.
His simple “go away” raised a lot of questions in me, which he readily answered. Now there is no pain in my soul yet, there is stupor, confusion, but at the same time some invisible force has appeared in me that does not allow me to feel pain. The terrible pain that he caused me before. I'm afraid that it will hit me again and I will feel very bad.
What can be done to prevent this from happening? Did I really do everything wrong, because he told me that I was groveling in front of him, and now he doesn’t like that about me. What's my mistake? I know that I can forgive this person and Oleg Gennadievich’s advice will help me. Just what did I do wrong?