Good evening. I have this situation. My boyfriend and I met at the university, we’ve been dating for four years now, if you can call it that. We diverged and then came together. While he was dating me, he was dating (as I found out) another girl. He tells me that I completely suit him in everything, but he doesn’t want to start a family with me or anyone.
I understand that he is still young. He is 21 years old. I tell him, let’s stop our communication then, that nothing will work out for us, since I am 9.5 years older than him, but outwardly this is not noticeable. Besides, we live in different cities. But he still keeps me close to him, makes sure that I don’t have anyone. I would like to be with this person, but I’m afraid that this will drag on and in the end he will leave me. He already told me that “that’s it, we need to leave you alone” and still writes.
I try to do everything as Oleg Gennadievich says: I pray (not much, but I try), I don’t eat meat. Tell me, please, what should I do? He seems to have feelings, but he probably wouldn’t have done anything either; there are plenty of girls in his city. His family used to be against me, now it seems like the opposite, but it feels like something has changed in him.
Maybe it’s my karmic debts that prevent me from being with a person? This isn't the first time my relationship hasn't worked out this way. At first everything is fine, and then everything collapses. I know my mistakes, which were in this life and that I also have many vices. But is it really because of them that I will now not be able to build my life with the person I would like to be with?
Thanks to prayers, it’s no longer so painful for me to stop communicating with him, and I was able to forgive his betrayals, accepted him for who he is, but something is wrong, and I can’t understand what exactly. Thank you.