How do you do? Please help with advice. Already desperate. The problem from the outside may seem strange and not even a problem at all, but it's insanely hard for me.
I have very big problems with food addiction. I loved to eat since childhood, I was always plump. But lately I realized that I was getting worse and worse. If earlier I could somehow limit myself, try to switch to proper nutrition, for six months I refused my favorite meat, for two months I ate raw food (which was just a feat for me), then after that I seemed to have burst even more.
I feel bad, I have a lot of mucus in the body, inflammatory processes, the most terrible flatulence, sore joints, there is pancreatic, obesity of the third degree, and I am only 25 years old. But now, even during periods of the most severe pain and discomfort (I understand and clearly feel that it is because of food), I go and eat even more, because I can not restrain myself. The thought that you will have to give up your favorite treat terrifies me and seems to throw me into a fever.
I wouldn't say that I'm unhappy. I had a good childhood, I have very loving parents, believers. I myself am a believer (although I went to this for a long time), I try very hard to think positively, to pray, to thank the Lord for everything, to help people. Thank God, nothing terrible and stressful happened in life. But I seek comfort in food every day. It brings me happiness, a feeling of comfort. Although I understand that it is harmful.
I understand that I do not have a personal life because of this, I have an insanely many complexes. But all this does not force me to give up habits, but on the contrary, I seek solace in food. This is a vicious circle. I understand that I live my life in vain. But I can't help it. When I realize I want to eat, my brain just turns off. All arguments become unimportant. And it's scary. very. Because I don't believe in myself. I realize that I will end up dying from it, and very early. And I want to be healthy. I really want! But every day I get worse and worse.
I now have the whole family of vegetarians. Dad is a raw foodist, although 54 years of his life he was a meat-eater and never thought that he would refuse this food. Even he changed his habits. And it's very hard for me to do it. I lost myself in this, and it is very difficult for me to live. It's very hard to fight with yourself. I'm not exaggerating because I knew how to do it and did it with success. almost all my life. But in the last year I seemed to be replaced. Please help me with advice. Thank you. Bless you Lord!